Marin Independent Journal

Debra

The Red Grape

10Q
Jewel Mathieson

By Daedalus Howell
Photo by Melania.


Among her many creative pursuits, poet Jewel Mathieson is author of “Silk Tracks, Purging Silences from Cells” and “This Dance, A Poultice of Poems.”

DH: In Hollywood, you’re what they would call a “poly-hyphenate” because of all that you do. If you were going to put them in a row, what would they be?

JM: A mother-dancer-poet… You know what? I feel that I’m a seeker in all of those – the basic underlying thing is that I’m a seeker.

DH: Well, have you found it yet?

JM: It? There’s an “it” to find?

DH: Perhaps that was naïve of me.

JM: I try to find love wherever I go and get out of my way.

DH: Get out of your own way?

JM: Oh, yeah, I’m my biggest enemy.

DH: You don’t have another nemesis out there somewhere?

JM: If I do they haven’t proclaimed themselves – and please don’t.

DH: That’s the most insidious kind.

JM: Absolutely. I’m sure I have a few of those, but my biggest enemy is like my own private jihad in my head.

DH: If you could eradicate your own personal jihad, would you?

JM: You know, for me, that’s grist for my art.

DH: That was my next question.

JM: When something tortures me, I take it to the alchemy of art and transform it. To do like a crazy dance, the de-possession dance, dancing the demons out – those are hot dances. My poetry is also “poultice poetry” – poetry for healing.

DH: What’s the next step in your art?

JM: When I got cancer, I had all these projects on the back burners, several different things I had spinning. Right now, I’m in completion mode. I finished my children’s collection, I’ve been teaching my rhythms craft to children forever. Coming to fruition and completion of that is what I needed to do. I had a lot of creative juices flowing but nothing finished – you just look at that bottom drawer and say “That can’t die with me. There are some good poems in there. I could at least lift out the best lines!”

DH: When it comes to creative work, is it the process or the end product that inspires? Is it better to finish or to do?

JM: I always love the doing, which is why I have a problem finishing. I love being in the moment. Even in performance, to go back and memorize my stuff feels like going back in time. I always like to be present, but if you’re going to be successful as an artist, you need to package your art and get it out. You need a balance.